The Joy Of Healing

You left me so scathed,
And so perfectly!
beyond my imagination!
That it bleeds still,
With the very same intensity,
It once did.

My vulnerability was rewarded well!
And so was my innocence.

I have to live rest of my life,
like this,
smothered;
withered;
and,
scathed !

You never understood,
how much the unsaid goodbye,
haunted me for months !

Thank You for all the pain.
Because without you I might have never known,
The Joy Of Healing !!

She was the storm
who broke his silence
and made beauty out of his chaos.

But, he preferred the breeze
to comfort him and bury his laments.

She was the wave crashing against the cliff
who asked him to tackle a mountain full of his thoughts.

But he preferred the floating river
that carried his sorrowful vents.

She was the thunderstorm,
Who could keep him awake at nights
and talk about the universe that he hid within himself.

But he preferred the lullaby that hushed him to sleep.

When she was around him,
He could think nothing of her but an ordinary soul.

Now that he reads about her
From the lips of strangers
He either realise what he has lost
or what he could have gained.

#LoveLetter

My dearest Valentine to-be,

I am indeed honoured to be called your wife, the other half of a man of passion, strength, emotions, wisdom, virtue, character, respect and most importantly LOVE. Things in life were never easy, but with you by my side, I know, how much strength is instilled within me to cross any ocean or to go through any depths. Love comes so easily when it is with you. With no specific demands you allowed me to live a life of my dreams and to soar high in the sky. What else would I need from this life? You are a strong backbone at every single step of mine; you have been there with me through all the odds and worst, in my thickest and thinnest. With you I have traveled and discovered this whole world, not only outwardly, but within and you know it nicely, I would love to do that again and again. You have taught me to stay strong, and together we can win this world with our righteousness. You accepted me the way I was, with all those scary scars and unworthy past. That’s the reason why you hold a lovely and very special place in my heart. Loving you and trusting you were never hard, it came intensely, naturally and effortlessly. You are the very reason that I love to get up from bed every morning. Your tenderness has washed away my every insecurity, which once held every part of mine. You know it well how to flatter and to pamper me, well if you lacked these qualities I guess things would have been different then. I never had a thought of life like this. Life.....a bundle of feelings and words.....words, coincidences’, meetings, love, agony, strive, pain and togetherness, like an ocean with all those ebbs and tides, may be hard to understand at times, but always beautiful in the end. Even if I try my best to define it in simplest words possible, I know I won’t be able to do that. My life now is complete with you, and our lovely daughters. I had never wished for anything more from this life! You always leave me in amazement to this fact that, how nicely do you know when to control me and to set me free. And you perfectly know how to surf waves of ocean in my heart. You have filled all the gaps that were within me, in my heart and soul. Through you I now know that the amount of love and respect that I have to give to this world, I do deserve to receive it back.

Life would have never been so beautiful and guilt free, because it was you who taught me that loving somebody else selflessly was never self harming in the end. You are the only ocean that I would love to swim without fearing of getting drowned.

God has blessed my withered soul his divinity through your presence in my life and I know like a magic it’s going to stay forever like this, till eternity’s extremities. I LOVE YOU.

Yours loving,

Valentine to-be.

THIS SONG TO LOVE OF MY LIFE:-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=94tY8gVK4xM

This Moon Tonight Is Shinning So Bright;
And Clock On The Wall Ticks Away This Life;

Reminds Me I Shall Fade Away Someday;
Leaving Behind Everything That I Call Mine;

But This Moon...
Shall Shimmer Bright.....
Till Eternity........

~Aarzoo

Ulfat bhari un hawaaon mein;
Chahat bhari un nigaahon mein;
Manzar usi ka tha chaya;
Naa smjhe zamana saara;
Nasamjh wo khud se bhi haara;
Arzoo uske man ki,
Ab talak koi bhi naa jaan paaya....

Musaafir tha wo,
Chalta hi chala gaya;
Manchala tha wo,
Udta hi chala gaya;
Har kaafilo k sang,
Ek kalma wo bhi likhta hi chala gaya....

Manzil thi uski bhi laapata;
Na ghar Na theekana raha,
Phir bhi,
Apni zidd par ade use aage,
Badhte hi jaana tha..
Chalte hi jaana tha...

Azaad hone ki chaah mein usne,
Kai afsaano ko chodaa;
Azaad hone ki aas me usne,
Kai paymaano ko bhi todaa;
Kai Khubsurat Nazaro ko piche chodd,
Wo aage badhta hi chala gaya...

Aaj bhi hai wo thaka haara,
Magar umeedo se na tha maara,
Manzil ki chaah mein,
Aage badhta hi chala gaya....
Badhta hi chala gayaa...
Bas badhta hi chala gaya......."

~ Arzoo, A Phoenix !!
#SheWrites

He's More Myself,
Than I am.
Whatever Our Souls Are Made Of;
His & Mine Are The Same. 

All that makes you;
fragile and fierce,
and,
clever and powerful,
and,
wounded and creative,
and,
layered and thoughtful,
and,
moody and spiritual,
and,
wild and damaged;

Can be described In,
A Single Word;
"LOVELY"

Love

They See Her Happy;
The Rawness Of Her Soul,
Exposed Her Fidelity,
Towards The Unknown;
Towards The Life;
And,
Towards Him...
For,
She Could Never,
Think Of Anybody Else.
The Thought Of Other,
Had Already Subdued,
From The Very Moment,
She Had Seen His Eyes...

Because,

When She Saw His Eyes,
She Felt Love & Pain,
When She Felt Both,
At The Same Time,
A......A Paradox;
She Witnessed God.
When She Witnessed God.
She Confronted,
That,
That Moment Was Blessing On Her,
And,
Trust Me If You Can,

A Moment Was Enough,
A Simple Majestic Moment,
She Knew,
She Lived Her Life In That.
Waiting For Nothing Else.

Because,
Somethings Never Change...
Because,
Seasons Have Stopped Changing,
In Her Heart...

‪#‎MyMysticThoughts‬
‪#‎2AMConfessions‬

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Eternity's Extremity. . . .

I Do Not Think My Heart Is Yearning For You.

 

Never The Heart;

For It Shall Stop Beating One Day,

For Heart Is The Part Of A Weak Body.

 

A Body That Is,

Fated To Death.

 

But,

It Is The Soul That Yearns,

For Everlasting Love.

 

And That Is The Sole Reason,

Why People Think That Love Is For Forever;

For The Soul Only Lasts Forever.

 

It Is Neither The Mind That Thinks;

Nor The Heart That Beats.

 

But The Soul That Whispers.

The Soul That Breathes.

 

That Is Why All My Life,

I Have Done Nothing,

But,

Yearn,

For You.

And,

I Will Continuously Do So,

Till Eternity's Extremity!

"At 2AM"

**At 2AM**
When All My Contemptuous Thoughts Subside.

I Look Through My curtainless Window;
Admiring The Darkness Outside.

And Then I Realize;
How Much Lonely I Have Been;
For All These Years And Nights !!!

It's Not Just The Emptiness,
That Weakens Me Inside;
But The Memories;
That Never Allows,
Sleep To Rest By My Side !!

I Stare Through My,
Curtainless Window;
And Notice The Moon Outside,
Shimmering So Bright Tonight...
With No One Else,
Standing By His Side...

And,
His Loneliness Reminded Me,
Of mine....
And Perhaps
That Was The Thing,
Common Between,
Me And Him Tonight !!

And Thus,
Despite Of All This Colossal Discord;
I feel So Close To Him Tonight !!


~Aarzoo.....

Till Eternity...

This Moon Tonight Is Shinning So Bright;
And Clock On The Wall Ticks Away This Life;

Reminds Me I Shall Fade Away Someday;
Leaving Behind Everything That I Call Mine;

But This Moon...
Shall Shimmer Bright.....
Till Eternity........

~Aarzoo. . . 

Unkahe Alfaaz

Sab baaton ka pata hona zaroori to nahi.....

Sab raaz ka jikra karna zaroori to nahi....

Dil aur dil saath rahe zaroori to nahi....

Bas wo ek dusre ke liye dhadke zaroori to nahi....

Boond ban kr aankho se chalak rahe zazbaat mere....

Koi inhe samjhe zaroori to nahi.....

Khwahish sirf thodi si mohbbat ki thi....

Har khwahish ho puri zaroori to nahi....

Arzoo meri ab meri na rahi.....

Saaath rahegi wo tere...mera hona zaroori to nahi...

Chod Kar zamana chaha hai tujhe.....

Is buniyaad par Tujhe wo mera bana de zaroori to nahi....

Saari raat yu hi beeti yaado me tere....

Teri baato me mera hona zzaroori to nahi....

Shayad ...

Chaha tha sirf mene hi tujhe....

Tera mujhe meri tarah chahna zaroori to nahi......

~Aarzoo. . . . . 

THE ONE

She Was Told By Him;
"You look Beautiful"...

But Little Did He Know;
She Was "Cold" Too...

For, Her Fiery Savage Fire;...

Was Tight-Lipped Only For,
"The_One"

 

~Aarzoo !

Heart Still Beats

Cut me into two;
and still;
you will find his name;
spilling all over;
Through My Veins ! ♥

 Arzu .... ... ... ..

4 AM Me

In the end,
We all are Haunted,
Somewhere in our hearts,
Of died wishes,
And fistful memories,
With a longing,
To live again,...


The moments of past.
And nothing can break,
The wizardry spell,
Not even a wishful heart....


~ Aarzoo. . . .

Wo Pehli Baar...

"And Then All Her Cynical Doubts Faded In The Scene;
When Their Eyes met, She Felt Something Within......

Something That Was So Surreal;
Something That Made Her Fall For Him...
When Their Eyes Met;
She Was Mesmerized.
For All The Charms,
She Had Seen.
They Were Dark & Honest & Deep;
As If A Miraculous Cloister Of Dreams...
The Loyalty, The Trust, The Honesty, The Pride;
She Could Feel All his Powers Uprise...
In His Eyes...
She Saw His Soul...
An Indomitable Serene Spirit...
Which Shall Never Fall ....
~ *Serene_K* "
(My Thoughts Unveiled)


My emotions flew with wings of his memories in sky of beautiful past. This was exactly how I felt when had seen him and his eyes. I still giggle and thank god for all his grace he has showered on me in his name.

Wishes

She So Wished,
She Were His Guitar;
All The Time;
Close To His Heart.!
Where She Could Trace;...
All The Chords Of His Life.
Listening To All His Thoughts;
That Eventually Turned,
Into His Poetry.
Where He Could Sing,
Out Loud All His,
Hidden Desires & Deep Sorrows.
Where They Could Sit Silently;
And Share The Silence,
Comfortably
For Hours, Hours & Hours....

For,
His Words Were Symphony;
Music That Synced Her Heart.
And She Knew,
Nothing Over Her Life-time;
Could Supersede;
His Charm !

~ Aarzoo

"Ashes"

And,
She shall leave quietly someday,
With no words said..
She shall just mate with soil;
And when her soul leaves her body;...
His name shall ECHO all over her grave !

A little too much;
A little too less;
But never ENOUGH !


The dirt shall smoother her body;
And where there shall be nothing left but her bones...


The Spell Of His Name Shall Glow;
In The Deepest Crimson Of Her Dry Blood !!


And Then He Shall Be There;
Standing Helpless !


Remembering All Those Moments Of Love & Care ...
Which She Showered On Him..
SELFLESSLY...
But He Ignored !


And Then He Shall Cry Over..
For All The Harshness & Coldness ..
The Way He Treated Her..
And The Way He Threw Her Away From Him...
He Shall REALIZE Then;
How Deeply She Loved Him !
The Same Love;
For Which He Craved For All His Life !
But..........
He Builded Barriers !
To Protect Himself;
From All The Hurt He'd Seen !
He Shall Realize;
That All Those Times,


He Was So Focused On The Pain,
Of This Cruel World,
& Little Did He Realized;
That His Barriers Locked Out Love too !


And Then It Shall Be Quite Too Late For All His Apologies. . ..
And they stayed the same forever....

""Unsaid & Unheard"" !

~ Aarzoo

Realizing Reality

 

I Am Probably Not What You See;

I Am Probably Not What You Think;

I May Be Kind At Times;

At Times My World Turns,

Upside Down.

You Never Know,

When'll You See,

The New Version Of ME

 

I Am A Free Soul;

Out Far From Reach,

Of Your Imagination.

My Dreams May Be Hard To Achieve,

But They Arent Unrealistic As Cindrella's

 

In No Jewell To Get My Prince;

Because I know,

I Shall Be Ruling My World.

 

I Am Probably Not What You See,

I Am Probably Not What You Think.

You Never Know,

When'll You See,

The New Version Of ME..

 

In Persuasion Of Dreams,

Miles I have Walked,

Alone,

Withered,

Torn,

In Solitude.

 

Still I Have Miles To Go,

And There Is No Turning Back.

Not At All.

 

So Many Questions,

Unanswered.....

And I Am Living With Them,

From Ages.

 

Ages Later,

I Will Be There.

Where I Ought To Be..

 

The Sun Of My Future;

Shall Shine Bright Too;

Dazzling My Very Own,

Knackered Eyes.

Leaving This Cruel World,

Bewildered.

 

The Tangles Of Love & Relationships,

Do Not Allure My Withered Soul,

 Anymore.

Perhaps Because I Know,

Where I Ought To Be. ...

 

 

~ Arzu...